ONE HIT FROM HELL

Too much pressure…

Too many thoughts…

I swore I'd never go back…

But damn, I'm feeling lost.

(808 DROP)

Stress in my chest, got a war in my brain,

Every damn day feels exactly the same.

Bills piling up, got a smile that's fake,

One more bad night and I'm ready to break.

Meth on my mind like a ghost from the past,

Cocaine whispers, "Make the feeling pass."

DMT visions, tryna leave this place,

MDMA memories I can't erase.

Weed in the air, dabs calling my name,

Six different demons, but the hurt stays the same.

I ain't chasing a high, I'm escaping the low,

Fighting with a monster only I really know!

I can feel my hands shake,

Hear the devil at my door.

Every time I think I'm healing,

Life throws me another war!

ONE HIT FROM HELL! ONE STEP FROM GONE!

Been fighting these demons for way too long!

BASS IN MY CHEST, BLOOD RUNNING COLD!

Tryna stay clean while I'm losing control!

I DON'T WANNA FALL! I DON'T WANNA BREAK!

But there's only so much that a soul can take!

SCREAM TO THE SKY, LET THE WHOLE WORLD KNOW!

I'M AT WAR WITH A HIGH THAT WON'T LET GO!

White lines, dark nights, memories flash,

Promises broken, watching time turn ash.

Powder and smoke, all the lies I believed,

Temporary escape left permanent grief.

Heart beating fast, paranoia creeps,

Eyes wide open, haven't found no sleep.

Everybody says, "Just put it away,"

They don't hear the voices screaming every day!

I know what it costs, I remember the pain,

I remember the people I pushed away.

Got a phone in my hand, got a choice to make,

Call somebody I trust or repeat my mistakes!

I'M NOT MY ADDICTION!

I'M NOT MY PAST!

I'M SICK OF RUNNING

FROM THE SHADOWS I CAST!

One more breath!

One more fight!

I ain't giving my life

To these demons tonight!

ONE HIT FROM HELL! ONE STEP FROM GONE!

BUT I'M STILL BREATHING, I'M STILL HOLDING ON!

BASS IN MY CHEST, FIRE IN MY SOUL!

THESE DRUGS DON'T GET TO TAKE CONTROL!

I MIGHT BE HURTING! I MIGHT BE SCARRED!

BUT I DIDN'T COME THIS DAMN FAR!

TO LOSE MYSELF WHEN THE PRESSURE GETS HIGH!

I'D RATHER FIGHT THAN WATCH MY FUTURE DIE!

Relapse ain't the answer…

But some nights, it's all I can hear.

Tonight…

I'm choosing to stay here.