Behind Closed Doors

Behind closed doors, the silence knew

Every shade of what you put me through

You arrived like summer in December,

Lit a thousand candles in my name;

Promised me a future to remember,

Then slowly turned the warmth into a flame.

You measured every word I said,

Moved the ground beneath my feet;

Made me doubt the voice inside my head,

Then called my breaking down defeat.

You wore a halo for the crowd,

While I was fading in the dark;

You spoke so sweetly, clear and loud,

But every promise left a mark.

You can tell them you tried your best,

You can paint yourself the hero;

But I know the truth beneath your chest,

And I know the places you won’t show.

You can call me crazy for the tears,

Say I’m the one who lost control;

But I am leaving with my years,

And taking back my soul.

You played the victim in the daylight,

Gathered every stranger to your side;

While I learned to disappear at midnight,

Keeping all your secrets locked inside.

You made a prison out of kindness,

Called the chains a gift of love;

But the door was never really timeless—

There was always sky enough above.

Now the mirror speaks in my own voice,

No more shadows wearing my face;

I survived the cost of your choice,

I am done defending your disgrace.

You can tell them you tried your best,

You can paint yourself the hero;

But I know the truth beneath your chest,

And I know the places you won’t show.

You can call me crazy for the tears,

Say I’m the one who lost control;

But I am leaving with my years,

And taking back my soul.

The story you omit is where I heal,

The hidden scars are proof enough;

I don’t need the world to know how you feel—

I only need to know I’m done.

Tell them anything you need to say,

Build your kingdom out of smoke;

I will not return to yesterday,

I will not live beneath your cloak.

You can call me crazy for the tears,

But I can hear my heartbeat whole;

I am stepping through the years,

And taking back my soul.

Behind closed doors, I found the key;

The truth was waiting there in me.