The Righteous Side of Hell

Right or wrong, I can’t honestly tell

I’m drowning in agony, hiding it well

Behind these four walls, I watch the world turn

Learning their scars by the bridges they burn

I reach for an answer, I reach to be held

To be heard, not feared for the wounds that I’ve shelved

They carry their trauma, I bury mine deep

A guarded heart with no promise to keep

I was raised behind a locked front door

Now I see what the outside is for

Every shattered face looks back at me

Like a verdict I don’t want to read

Is this the wrong side of heaven?

Or the righteous side of hell?

I’m drowning in agony

But no one can tell

No shelter, no love, just a heart gone numb

Surrounded by shattered souls

And what I’ve become

It’s not my duty to save every soul

Or shoulder their burdens till I’m hollow and cold

I can’t be the altar, the answer, the cure

For every broken life that walks through my door

I gave them my back till my backbone cracked

Took every dark weight and carried it back

Now the room’s gone quiet, the damage is done

I’m lost and alone where the blame comes from

I was raised behind a locked front door

Now I see what the outside is for

Every shattered face looks back at me

Like a verdict I don’t want to read

Is this the wrong side of heaven?

Or the righteous side of hell?

I’m drowning in agony

But no one can tell

No shelter, no love, just a heart gone numb

Surrounded by shattered souls

And what I’ve become

No, I won’t be the grave for everyone’s pain

No, I won’t wear their chains till they tighten again

But the mirror keeps screaming beneath all the dust

That the one I can’t forgive is the one I distrust

Maybe mercy starts with drawing the line

Maybe healing means leaving some weight behind

I can’t save every soul, I can barely stand

But I’m still here breathing with blood on my hands

Is this the wrong side of heaven?

Or the righteous side of hell?

I’m drowning in agony

But no one can tell

No shelter, no love, just a heart gone numb

Surrounded by shattered souls

And what I’ve become

Right or wrong, I still can’t honestly tell

But I’m done calling silence a place I should dwell

No shelter, no love, but I’m breaking the spell

Between the wrong side of heaven

And the righteous side of hell