The Call I Never Made

It’s been a long time…

I don’t even know why I’m calling.

Maybe I just needed to hear your voice.

I drove past our old street yesterday

And for a moment, everything felt the same

The house is different, the lights are gone

But somehow I could still feel you holding on

I heard our song in a crowded room

And suddenly I was right back there with you

Funny how a memory can open up a door

I thought I’d finally learned to close

I’ve rehearsed these words a thousand times

In every version, you’re still mine

But some things don’t get fixed

Just because we miss them

So this is the call I never made

The words I swallowed, the things I couldn’t say

I don’t need you to come back home

I just needed you to know

You were the love I couldn’t save

The sweetest mistake I couldn’t erase

And if you’re happy, I hope it’s true

Because a part of me will always love you

I used to blame you for the way it ended

Then I blamed myself for every second

We were young and we were scared

Trying to build forever out of broken pieces

I know I said some things I didn’t mean

You know you left some wounds nobody could see

But underneath the anger and the pride

There was still a girl who wished we’d survived

I’ve rehearsed these words a thousand times

In every version, you’re still mine

But some things don’t get fixed

Just because we miss them

So this is the call I never made

The words I swallowed, the things I couldn’t say

I don’t need you to come back home

I just needed you to know

You were the love I couldn’t save

The sweetest mistake I couldn’t erase

And if you’re happy, I hope it’s true

Because a part of me will always love you

Maybe in another life

We would’ve gotten it right

Maybe we’d have grown together

Instead of growing apart

But I don’t want another life

I don’t want to rewrite

Every tear, every fight

Every beautiful part

Because losing you taught me

How to finally choose me

So this is the call I never made

The last goodbye I was too afraid to say

I don’t need you to come back home

I finally learned to let you go

You were the love I couldn’t save

But I’ll never regret the time we gave

And if you’re happy, I hope it’s true

Because I once loved you…

And now I love me too

So I’m hanging up tonight

No more wondering why

This was the call I never made.

Goodbye.