When The Night Comes Back

Daylight makes it easier to breathe (breathe)

I keep myself busy, don't give my mind a chance to speak (don't let it speak)

I laugh, I live, I carry on (carry on)

I tell myself that part of my life is gone (it's gone)

But when the house falls quiet (so quiet)

And every little sound gets loud,

My mind goes somewhere I don't want to go (not again)

And suddenly I'm back there somehow (back there)

I don't want to go back there

I don't belong inside that fear (not anymore)

So why does my heart still beat

Like something's standing near?

When the night comes back (oh, here we go again)

I lose myself in yesterday (yesterday)

Every shadow knows my name (knows my name)

Every memory finds a way (finds a way)

I know I'm here, I know I'm free (I'm here)

But sometimes that's not enough for me (not enough)

The morning comes, and I survive (I survive)

But the night makes me relive my life (relive my life)

There are things I don't talk about (things I hide)

Things I thought I'd left behind,

I learned to hide the fear so well (so well)

Even from my own mind.

But dreams don't listen when I say (please don't)

That chapter's finally closed,

They pull me back into those moments (back again)

When I just want to let them go (let them go)

I don't miss the pain

I don't miss who I was

I just wish my heart could understand

That I'm not trapped anymore (I'm free)

When the night comes back (oh, here we go again)

I lose myself in yesterday (yesterday)

Every shadow knows my name (knows my name)

Every memory finds a way (finds a way)

I know I'm here, I know I'm free (I'm here)

But sometimes that's not enough for me (not enough)

The morning comes, and I survive (I survive)

But the night makes me relive my life (relive my life)

Maybe healing isn't forgetting

Maybe freedom doesn't mean

That every scar stops aching (still aching)

Or every dream stops haunting me (haunting me)

Maybe I'm allowed to shake (it's okay)

Maybe I'm allowed to cry (let me cry)

Maybe being scared sometimes

Doesn't mean I didn't survive (I survived)

When the night comes back

I'll remind myself where I am (I'm right here)

I'm not that girl inside the memory

I'm the woman who still stands

The darkness knows the roads I walked (it knows)

But it doesn't own me now (never again)

And when the morning finds my window

I'll still be here somehow (still here)

So let the night remember

Everything I can't forget.

I'll breathe until the morning comes

I'm still here (still here)

I'm not finished yet