I Won’t Disappear for You

What’s the point of drawing breath

When you were the air I knew?

I gave you every broken part,

Every dream I handed you.

Now I count the barest needs,

Coffee, sleep, and making do,

With my head bowed to the floor,

Trying to find a reason through.

I walked through fire when you called,

Through flood and thunder, through it all.

I lost the ones who knew my name—

And still you never saw the flame.

You broke me, we both know it’s true,

I gave my whole life up to you.

I’d cross the ash, I’d face the blue,

But I won’t disappear for you.

You were my reason breathing then,

Now I’ll learn to breathe again.

You broke me, we both know it’s true—

But I won’t disappear for you.

I fought through hell and high water,

With your name beneath my tongue.

Left my friends and left my family,

Swore the war had just begun.

You couldn’t spare an hour to see

The wreckage underneath my skin.

You watched me build a world for two,

Then never let me enter in.

I called your silence something kind,

Made excuses for the lies.

But every door you closed on me

Still left a key inside my hand.

You broke me, we both know it’s true,

I gave my whole life up to you.

I’d cross the ash, I’d face the blue,

But I won’t disappear for you.

You were my reason breathing then,

Now I’ll learn to breathe again.

You broke me, we both know it’s true—

But I won’t disappear for you.

The worst part is, I’d do it all again,

If I could meet the person I was then.

But love should never ask me to be gone,

So I’ll carry this hurt until it’s gone.

One small breath, one open door,

One more step across the floor.

You took the life I thought I knew—

You don’t get what is left of me too.

You broke me, we both know it’s true,

I gave my whole life up to you.

I’d cross the ash, I’d face the blue,

But I won’t disappear for you.

You were my reason breathing then,

Now I’ll learn to breathe again.

You broke me, we both know it’s true—

But I won’t disappear for you.

I’m still here, and that is proof,

There’s a road beyond the truth.

You were my reason breathing then,

Now I’ll learn to breathe again.