Musical Story Book [ Female Version]

Anger making me dangerous

almost if not fully deranged

Costing all the progress

that I made to date my mind is a kleptomaniac stealing away my happiness like night steals away the day clouds in my mind blocks out my sunshine

has me questioning my fate

thinking that it's too late

like a train wreck derailed from it's tracks I can't get back on track can't keep track to many highs to many lows steam whistle blows

screaming out for help underneath my breath I'm out of breath I can't breathe encrypted messages in the words I sing

wrongfully believing that noone

can relate to this mental state my

Mind alive with wildfire

passions and desires yet

dying right befor eyes

While sorrow with in rage

escalates with in

Fighting day and night

torn between the cacophony

of collateral damage

and the silence

that comes with completely giving in

Seeming to never be able to get shit right

any time i try

Wondering who would

miss me if I closed my eyes and faded away tonight

Seeing my light fade

as the chaos

cascades around me

The sounds in my inner ears

are all I'm able to hear although

there's no water surrounding me

my face feels encased in it drowning

on dry ground reaching out for a flotation device what's the price to be paid to be saved I can't save me is it karma punching me in the teeth or the reaper of death knocking on my door looking for another pay day

Screaming out in silence

with in my own mind

it's too loud,

Closing my eyes

viewing madness within sadness

masked by happiness

gripped by regrets

Trying to find and focus on

those silver linings that have been provided by the divine,

Scared yet unware that each time i survive

curves of twists and bends on the roads of life I'll always finish just fine in the end,How do I know Because I have died and rose again a thousand times severing times

What crashes and burns turns to ashes i

Will always rise brighter higher and wiser every time,when I drift away into my internal sleep play my songs I sing on repeat keep them on repeat decipher the encrypted messages I leave behind in the songs I sing and the answers you seek to find of what's hanging on the walls of my mind what lies on the floors of my membrain you will find in the chapters of my musical story book I leave behind