[MOVEMENT I — WINTER HAS COME]
[Sparse piano, distant cello, cold atmospheric strings. Intimate, fragile female vocal. Slow tempo.]
The roses have forgotten
How to open in the snow.
The little house is somewhere
I no longer dare to go.
There's a ribbon in my pocket,
There's a blanket on my knee.
There's a little life beside me
Looking up for all of me.
Oh, the night is getting colder.
Oh, the road is getting long.
I keep searching for the woman
I was certain I'd become.
Little one, listen...
Mama doesn't know the way.
I have all these things to teach you,
But I'm frightened here today.
[MOVEMENT II — THREE DOORS]
[Low Rhodes, soft sub-bass, restrained alternative R&B drums. A haunting fragment of the original waltz.]
There's a road that leads to Mama,
To the palace, to the gold.
She could wrap us up in velvet
When the world becomes too cold.
But would I lose myself again
To keep a roof above your head?
Would I trade the truth I fought for
For the life I thought was dead?
There's a road that leads to your father,
And my heart still knows it well.
But the last time I looked upon him,
There were things I couldn't tell.
Was I running from a faithless man?
Was I running from my fear?
Did I leave because he broke my heart,
Or because I couldn't bear
To stay and face the possibility
That I might still love him here?
And there's a road with no one's name on it,
No promises, no plan.
Just a woman and her baby
Learning what she can.
[MOVEMENT III — WHAT WILL I TEACH YOU?]
[The beat disappears. Bare piano, intimate vocal, subtle breaths, strings swelling slowly.]
Little one, what will I teach you
About the love that people give?
Will I teach you to accept less,
Just because it's how they live?
Will I teach you to be grateful
For a hand that holds you down?
Will I teach you to call it shelter
When you cannot turn around?
I don't want you to remember
How your mama disappeared
Inside the lives of other people
Just to keep somebody near.
I want you to see a woman
Who can tremble, who can cry,
Who can stand before the morning
With no answers, still she tries.
Oh, baby, I am learning.
I am learning as we go.
There are things a woman comes to know
When she has nowhere left to go.
[MOVEMENT IV — THE GIRL I LEFT BEHIND]
[Dreamlike layered vocals, warm Rhodes against icy strings. Gradually rising emotional intensity.]
Mama, I was just a daughter
Who was hungry to be known.
I thought love would make me worthy.
I thought I had to earn a home.
I thought a man could make me chosen.
I thought a crown could make me whole.
Now I'm standing in the winter
Trying to gather up my soul.
But maybe I was never worthless.
Maybe I was never weak.
Maybe strength is not the answer
That arrives when you don't speak.
Maybe I can miss my mother
And still refuse her throne.
Maybe I can love that man
And still learn to stand alone.
[MOVEMENT V — A WOMAN IN THE MAKING]
[The original fairytale waltz returns in a minor key, slowly transforming into a warm, steady soul groove.]
Little one, I'll find us shelter.
I'll find us something warm.
I can't promise you a kingdom.
I can't promise you no storms.
But I'll teach you how to question.
I'll teach you how to choose.
I'll teach you that your heart is yours,
And yours alone to lose.
And if one day you ask me
How I found my way back home,
I'll tell you there were three roads,
And I had to walk my own.
[CODA — LITTLE ONE, LISTEN]
[Piano and voice alone. A tender, unresolved melody; strings enter softly at the end.]
Little one, listen...
I am scared, but I am here.
Little one, listen...
We will make it through this year.
I don't know where we're going.
I don't know what waits ahead.
But you don't need a perfect mother.
You need a mother who won't disappear.
And darling, I am here.
*The piano repeats the opening motif, now warmer. A single cello note sustains into silence.*