She was not my heaven

“She Wasn’t Heaven”

(Verse 1)

When I first held you, girl, I swore I found home,

Thought I’d never have to walk this road alone.

You smiled like sunshine after years of pouring rain,

Then little by little… everything changed.

The pictures on the wall got turned around,

Your heart disappeared without a sound.

You weren’t beside me like you used to be,

No matter what I said, you couldn’t see me.

(Pre-Chorus)

I walked away a hundred times inside my mind,

But somehow love kept making me go blind.

(Chorus)

I prayed for the right woman for so many years,

Talked to God through whiskey and a million tears.

Thought Heaven finally answered everything I’d been needing…

Turns out you weren’t an angel.

You were just another lesson bleeding.

I fell in love… now I’m misunderstood,

Gave you everything I knew was good.

Now I hear there’s another man, standing where I used to stand,

So I’m washing these hands… and leaving while I can.

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(Verse 2)

Truth is I knew this was over long ago,

But I kept hanging on ‘cause I couldn’t let go.

I wanted forever, you wanted somewhere else,

Guess I was the only one fooling myself.

I’m getting older but my fire still burns,

Life keeps teaching hard-earned turns.

One day I’ll find the woman meant for me,

Who loves me for who I am… not who she wants me to be.

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(Bridge)

Every time I needed you… you were never there.

I was carrying us both while you didn’t seem to care.

Funny how the weight disappears when you let it all go,

Now I finally breathe… and it finally shows.

You’ve got demons you’ll probably never face,

Still hiding behind another pretty face.

You call it mystery… I call it another lie,

If you were Pinocchio, your nose would scrape the sky.

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(Breakdown) (spoken)

What comes around… goes around.

You can bet your last dollar that’s true.

One day somebody’s gonna play those same damn games…

On you.

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(Final Chorus)

I prayed for the right woman for so many years,

Wondered why God answered with so many tears.

Maybe He wasn’t sending you to stay forever…

Maybe He was showing me

I deserved somebody better.

Now I’m riding on with nothing left to prove,

No chains around this old heart anymore.

You can keep your lies, your games, and your excuses…

I’m headed down another road.

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(Outro)

One last thing before I disappear…

I don’t hate you anymore.

That’s the part that’ll hurt you the most.

Because the opposite of love…

Was never hate.

It was finally… not caring at all.