HALFWAY TO GONE

Two in the morning, your name on my screen

I know what you're doing, you know what I mean

My coat's on the chair and my keys are in hand

I'm tired of pretending I don't understand

You say that you miss me, then leave me on read

I've memorised every excuse that you've said

There's a cab at the corner, the street's turning blue

One little message could bring me to you

I'm halfway to gone, halfway to staying

Half of me knows, half keeps on praying

You pull me so close just to let me fall

How can I miss you when you give me nothing at all?

I'm halfway out, but I'm looking behind

Still making excuses for wasting my time

If loving you means I keep losing myself

I'd rather be lonely than somebody else

Your jacket's still hanging behind my front door

Like some kind of promise I can't wear no more

Your friends say you're changing, your mother says wait

But nobody's here when you show up too late

And maybe I'm scared of the silence I'll hear

When I stop finding reasons to keep you near

It's easy to leave when there's nothing to lose

But what do you do when you still want the truth?

I'm halfway to gone, halfway to staying

Half of me knows, half keeps on praying

You pull me so close just to let me fall

How can I miss you when you give me nothing at all?

I'm halfway out, but I'm looking behind

Still making excuses for wasting my time

If loving you means I keep losing myself

I'd rather be lonely than somebody else

One more night, one more lie

One more reason I can't say goodbye

One more step, one deep breath

I'm not yours to lose again

What if the person I'm waiting to become

Is the one who stops waiting for someone?

What if the ending isn't something I fear?

What if my life starts when you disappear?

I loved who I thought you were gonna be

But that isn't the same as you loving me

I'm done being halfway, done hesitating

Done calling it love when I'm barely surviving

You pulled me so close, then let me fall

Now I know I don't have to answer your call

I'm walking out, and I'm not looking behind

No more making excuses, no more losing my mind

If loving you means I keep losing myself

I'd rather be lonely than somebody else

Two in the morning, your name on my screen

For the first time tonight, it don't mean anything.