WHAT I DESERVE

Verse 1

I’ve been staring at the ceiling

Trying not to think about you

Every word I should’ve said

Still comes back when the room gets quiet

I keep telling everybody

That I’m better on my own

But every time the night gets cold

You’re the first thing that I want

Pre-Chorus

And I know

I should let you go

But I don’t know how

Chorus

Maybe I’m not what you wanted

Maybe I’m not what you need

Maybe I spent my whole life

Trying to be somebody else for me

But I’m tired of pretending

That I don’t feel what I feel

If I’m gonna lose you tonight

At least let me know it’s real

Verse 2

I remember all the fights

And the silence after them

How we’d swear we’d never change

Then we’d do it all again

Maybe we were never perfect

Maybe that’s what made it ours

Some things only make you stronger

After they’ve already left a scar

Pre-Chorus

And I know

I should let you go

But I don’t know how

Chorus

Maybe I’m not what you wanted

Maybe I’m not what you need

Maybe I spent my whole life

Trying to be somebody else for me

But I’m tired of pretending

That I don’t feel what I feel

If I’m gonna lose you tonight

At least let me know it’s real

Bridge

I can’t keep running

I can’t keep hiding

I can’t keep telling myself I’m fine

If this is goodbye

Then look me in the eyes

And tell me you never loved me

Final Chorus

Maybe I’m not what you wanted

Maybe I’m not what you need

But I’m done spending my whole life

Trying to be somebody else for me

I’m tired of pretending

I’m done hiding what I feel

If I’m gonna lose you tonight

At least let me know it’s real