Close Enough to Confuse Me

I had all the evidence lined up in my head

Every little moment, every little thing we said

I liked being around you, didn’t want the night to end

So I took all of the pieces

And called it something else instead

We had the songs, the jokes

The easy conversations

That feeling when somebody

Gets your strange vibrations

I checked every box

Or at least that’s what I thought

Maybe I was looking

For a label this never needed at all

I thought if it looked that way

Maybe that’s what it must be

But now that I can see it

It’s almost funny to me

It was close enough to confuse me

Warm enough that I believed

Maybe this was what they meant

When they talked about falling deep

But I didn’t fall

I just really liked the view

I wasn’t in love

I just loved being there with you

It was real

Just not the way I thought it’d be

Close enough to confuse me

But not quite love for me

Funny how I waited for the heartbreak to arrive

Like any second now I’d feel the dramatic part

But nothing shattered, nothing hurt

Nothing fell apart

I just sat there thinking

“Huh…

I guess that’s not my heart”

And that doesn’t make it smaller

Doesn’t make it less sincere

I still want you in my story

I’m still glad that you are here

Maybe not every connection

Needs somewhere else to go

Maybe liking what we have

Is enough for me to know

I thought if it looked that way

Maybe that’s what it must be

Turns out there’s more than one way

Someone can matter to me

It was close enough to confuse me

Warm enough that I believed

Maybe this was what they meant

When they talked about falling deep

But I didn’t fall

I just really liked the view

I wasn’t in love

I just loved being there with you

It was real

Just not the way I thought it’d be

Close enough to confuse me

But not quite love for me

Maybe I don’t need

To name every spark

Maybe not every light

Is trying to be a star

Maybe some people

Just fit in your life

Without being forever

Without being “that” kind

And I think I like that

Yeah, I think I do

I don’t need to fall in love

To care about you

It was close enough to confuse me

Good enough that I believed

For a minute there I wondered

If you’d be that someone for me

But I didn’t fall

And now I finally see

I wasn’t in love

You just meant a lot to me

And that’s real

I don’t need it to be more

Close enough to confuse me

Now I know what it was for

So I got it wrong

…almost right

Close enough.