You were my best friend.
I know I told you that.
I never thought
It would come to this.
You said it.
I didn’t want to believe it.
The words, “I love you.”
Oh, what they meant to me.
I screenshotted them.
I keep them.
My best friend
Said that to me.
My heart was screaming,
“I love you,”
Through the phone.
“I’m so sorry.”
I didn’t want you
To be alone.
I was there.
I’d always been there.
And you knew it.
You even shared it
On a post.
Your three a.m. messages
Made me smile.
I was there for you.
I let you vent.
That’s what I wanted to do.
I didn’t mind at all.
You felt safe with me.
You told me.
I was happy
You could feel that with me.
I stayed to script.
I never tipped my hand.
But I kind of did.
I never said,
“I love you too.”
My heart was screaming,
“I love you,”
Through the phone.
“I’m so sorry.”
I didn’t want you
To be alone.
You were my best friend.
I keep your words.
I hold this ache
In silence.
Oh man,
Did I love you.
I still do.