Every Fucking Time

Yeah, that’s right, motherfucker.

This one’s for you.

You have no idea

How many times I look at you

Wanting you so bad.

A song playing in my head.

The good times we once had.

In my own world,

I’m still wanting that man.

How quickly you remind me.

My reality,

settles back in.

Directing your insults at me,

Before I could even speak,

Crushing me again.

I wouldn’t even talk to an enemy

Like that..

You don’t look at me.

You look through me.

You still can’t see why

I exit every room you walk in to.

You want intimacy?

You can’t even touch my mind.

And now your ask me to give you my body!

I’m not going there again!

The emotions are raw.

You just crushed them again.

You do this Every fucking time.

That look on your face.

I already know.

If it isn’t what you wanted,

You’ll make sure it shows.

Even when you do something for me,

I pay the price.

The sulking.

Your behavior.

Like I should’ve never asked.

You are a follower.

You have nothing of your own.

Always another’s schedules.

Or what they expect you to do.

Never have you realized

You’ve got a life right here.

Something you’ve always looked passed.

You don’t look at me.

You look through me.

Then you don’t know why

I can’t stand to look at you.

You want to make love?

You haven’t touched my mind,

My spirit,

Or my body

In a way that makes me feel wanted.

All those raw emotions.

You just crushed them again.

Every fucking time.

Burdened and bored. Is what hear from you.

What do you offer me! You got a lot of nerve to be so fucking rude.

You have no idea what it is like living with you!

Don’t even know why,

The thought of

wanting you would cross

my mind!

What I need you could never give.

you couldn’t even try.

Intimacy is more than your

3 minute ride!

Fuck!

What a waste of time!

You have no mind of your own.

You are what others expect you to be.

Never to be bothered

with I needed from you.

Tender and strong

At the same time.

Making love to me

with your eyes.

Did I expect to much from you.

Fuck You!

I want it all.

I never should have had to ask.

I’ve wasted my time.

Only the shall of a man.

There is Nothing inside.

You don’t look at me.

You look through me.

And you Still can’t figure out why,

I can’t stand you anymore!

I still wanted you.

You just crushed me again.

Every fucking time.

You never knew me,

never even tried.

Every fucking time.