Mother, my first bully

(Whisper and crying vocals)

(Slow)

My mother’s childhood trauma

is a burden

it reflects back to me

Why can’t she just love me?

**Verse 1**

Her mother’s sharp glances like daggers that slice,

Teaching her early that love comes with a price.

With each quiet dismissal, her spirit grew small,

She forged into stone, fearing love’s cruel fall.

**Pre-Chorus**

Conditioned to vanish, to blend into walls,

Over-apologizing, she stumbles and falls.

**Chorus**

The first bully wore a mask of indifference,

Turning softness to shadows, love lost in pretense.

Yearning for solace in a world turned to grey,

She learned to be silent, to wilt and decay.

**Verse 2**

Her laughter was muted, her dreams tucked away,

Beneath layers of armor, where feelings can’t sway.

“Be perfect, be flawless,” the unspoken decree,

An empty, grey rock, where her heart ceased to be.

**Pre-Chorus**

Conditioned to vanish, to blend into walls,

Over-apologizing, she stumbles and falls.

**Chorus**

The first bully wore a mask of indifference,

Turning softness to shadows, love lost in pretense.

Yearning for solace in a world turned to grey,

She learned to be silent, to wilt and decay.

**Bridge**

In the depths of her silence, emotions confined,

She searches for warmth, but it’s never aligned.

Each moment of joy feels like a distant dream,

In a world full of echoes, where nothing is seen.

**Verse 3**

A heart filled with longing, yet buried in stone,

Craving the affection that’s never been shown.

“I’m more than your shadows; I’m more than your guise,

But in this cruel silence, I’ve learned to despise.”

**Final Chorus**

The first bully wore a mask of indifference,

Turning softness to shadows, love lost in pretense.

Yearning for solace in a world turned to grey,

She learned to be silent, to wilt and decay.