Louder Than My Mind

I got a thousand thoughts running circles in my head,

Fighting battles with the words that I never said.

I smile for the world while I'm breaking inside,

Got a heart full of love and some fears I can't hide.

I learned to be strong when my world fell apart,

Carried everybody while neglecting my heart.

Seen people come and go, watched the seasons change,

But I still found a reason to dance in the rain.

I overthink love, overthink every goodbye,

Build a thousand worst-case stories in my mind.

But every time life tried to bury me deep,

I grew through the dirt with a dream I could keep.

And I know my mind gets loud sometimes,

Turns little fears into mountains to climb.

But I've walked through storms I thought I'd never survive,

And every single scar reminds me I'm alive.

My mind says fall, but my soul says rise,

Got a million little fears, but a fire inside.

I might bend, I might break, I might cry sometimes,

But my strength keeps screaming louder than my mind.

Oh, I fall, I heal, I fight, I climb,

Can't let my darkest thoughts define my life.

I got weakness in my heart, but strength in my spine,

And my soul keeps screaming louder than my mind.

I put on these boots, walk another long day,

With a million heavy thoughts that I never explain.

Used to dream of saving lives, making somebody proud,

Now I'm trying to save myself from the voices getting loud.

I love a little harder 'cause I know what loss can do,

Sometimes I fear losing things that I never even knew.

I give away my peace just to make somebody smile,

Then wonder why I'm empty when I'm alone for a while.

But I'm learning being strong doesn't mean I never fall,

Doesn't mean I gotta answer every single person's call.

I can love without fear, let tomorrow be unknown,

I can carry all my scars without calling them my home.

Maybe I'm afraid because I've lost so much,

Maybe I hold tight because I crave that love.

But fear ain't my future, and pain ain't my name,

I'm more than the memories that taught me to be afraid.

My mind says fall, but my soul says rise,

Got a million little fears, but a fire inside.

I might bend, I might break, I might cry sometimes,

But my strength keeps screaming louder than my mind.

I survived every storm that I thought would end my life,

Turned the darkest of my days into reasons I still fight.

I got weakness in my heart, but strength in my spine,

And I'll always be stronger than the fears inside my mind.

I used to think my weakness made me less than who I am...

Now I know my strength is getting up again.