Just Wanna Cry

(Its like I just wanna cry… all night long…)

(I’m tired… of pouring my heart into everyone…)

(Taking more and more from me…)

(Like I’ve always got something left to give…)

(But nobody sees what it costs me…)

(I… I miss me…)

Its like I just wanna cry… all night long,

I’m tired of giving my heart till the feeling is gone.

Putting everything I have into somebody else,

Then looking in the mirror like, “What happened to myself”

’Cause I… miss… me

I miss who I was before I needed somebody else to see

Something worth loving every time they looked at me.

Been standing in my own way for so damn long,

Watching all the things I wanted come and go.

And it makes me feel like crying… all night long,

’Cause I’m tired of believing this is where my heart belongs

Like I’m required to keep everybody happy,

Keep giving every piece until there’s nothing left to have me.

But what about me

I got feelings

I got meaning

My heart wasn’t made just for somebody to keep beating,

I deserve my own happiness

My own reasons to exist

I shouldn’t have to beg myself

To give me what I freely give to them

And that… makes… me..

(Feel like I just wanna cry… all night long…)

(I’m tired… of pouring my heart into all of yours…)

It makes me just wanna cry… all night long,

Giving everything away until everything is gone.

You keep taking more and more from me,

While I keep pretending I got plenty underneath.

But I’m suffering a loss…

’Cause I… miss… me

I’ve abandoned myself for so long

I barely recognize the person underneath.

That I just wanna cry… all night long…

Not because I’ve got nothing to live for

But because somewhere along the way

I forgot I was someone worth living for.

How did I let this happen

How’d I never get a handle on the pattern

I’ve been drowning in depression,

Still handing out affection

Like giving more of me would somehow make me matter.

And every girl I wanted,

Every heart I tried to hold,

I gave another part of mine

Before I learned to hold my own

I kept thinking love would fix it,

Thinking somebody could fill

Everything inside of me

That I was too afraid to feel

Now I’m staring at the pieces on the floor,

Wondering why I always came back asking for more.

Every disappointment started feeding that belief

That maybe being broken

Was the only version meant for me.

But I don’t wanna believe that anymore

Maybe love ain’t supposed to drain me

Maybe being alone doesn’t mean somebody failed me.

Maybe all this love I’ve been giving away

Could finally come back my way

From me.

Cuz I just wanna cry… all night long,

Let every buried feeling finally come undone.

I’m tired of giving everybody more of me

While treating my own heart like it doesn’t have a need.

’Cause I… miss… me

God I miss me

Not who I was for her

Not who somebody wanted me to be

I miss me

I got so much to give

But I got so much to live for too

And maybe for the first time

I don’t wanna spend it on everyone

(Its like I just wanna cry… all night long)

(I’m tired)

(So damn tired)

(‘Cause I miss me)