In Your Eyes

Intro)

(Total silence, then the sound of a sharp intake of breath)

(A faint, persistent room-mic hiss kicks in)

(The reverse piano loop bleeds in softly, dragging behind the beat)

Turn the monitors down.

Just leave the hiss.

I don't want to hear my own voice.

Just let it run.

(Verse 1)

Sitting in the quiet where the floorboards creak

Too tired to fake it, too hollow to speak

Everyone's talking about finding a spark

But I’m just trying to exist in the dark

The mirror is staring, it knows every lie

The promises made under an open sky

They look at my face and they think that I'm here

But I packed up and left at the start of the year

Now I just sit with a glass and the dope

Watching the ceiling get lost in the smoke

It’s not even anger, it’s just a clean break

A heavy fatigue in every bone that I wake

You told me you cared, but it felt like a trap

A hand on my shoulder that took the X off the map

So I step off the edge where the gravity fails

Where no one can reach me and nobody sails.

(Chorus)

I hate how it feels to be tethered to earth

Counting up the pieces and weighing my worth

So I pull up the anchor and drift through the gray

Letting the chemicals wash it away

Floating so high that the pressure goes numb

Waiting for nothing, because nothing will come

Just leave me up here where the atmosphere dies

Safe from the truth and the look in your eyes.

(Verse 2)

The phone on the mattress keeps lighting up bright

A name on the screen in the middle of night

I watch it go dark and I turn to the wall

I don't have the breath to respond to the call

They want me to tell them that everything’s fine

To patch up the holes and just stay on the line

But the battery’s dead and the wires are frayed

And I'm tired of playing the part that I played

It’s quiet up here where the air gets cold

Far from the stories that everyone told

No expectations, no debts left to pay

Just watching the daylight dissolve into gray

My hands are so heavy, my shadow is gone

I'm just an outline and I’m waiting for the dawn.

(Chorus)

I hate how it feels to be tethered to earth

Counting up the pieces and weighing my worth

So I pull up the anchor and drift through the gray

Letting the chemicals wash it away

Floating so high that the pressure goes numb

Waiting for nothing, because nothing will come

Just leave me up here where the atmosphere dies

Safe from the truth and the look in your eyes.

(Outro)

(The drums fade out completely, leaving only the raw room-mic hiss)

(The reverse piano loop plays one final, unresolved chord)

Safe from the look in your eyes.

Just let it run out.

(Sound of a chair sliding back)

(A single click as the microphone turns off)

(Silence)