Drowning In My Own Thoughts

I’ve been sinking in a void of silence,

Every breath feels borrowed now.

Built a prison in my own mind,

Perhaps it’s time for the final bow?

Every mirror tells a story

That I never meant to write.

I’m awake but barely living,

Just surviving through the night.

Every road I knew is fading,

Every sign has disappeared.

And if tomorrow is waiting …

Why can’t I see it from here?

I’m drowning in my own thoughts,

Trying to build myself up but I get pulled down.

Lost in the depths where hope gets buried,

Can’t hear a single sound.

Tell me where do I go from here?

The path is gone, it’s out of sight.

I’m screaming into the dark,

Trying to survive another night.

If I let go…

Will anybody know?

Or will I be another ghost,

Lost … forgotten… and alone?

I’ve been tracing old directions

With a compass that won’t turn.

Every lesson leaves another

Bridge behind me left to burn.

I’m so tired of pretending

Everything will be alright.

When the darkness of the night knows my name

Better than the morning light.

If hope’s a fire,

Then mine’s just smoke.

Every promise I held

Broke before I spoke.

I’m floating…

Not living.

Breathing…

Not healing.

Tell me—

How much longer

Till I hit the bottom?

I’m drowning in my own thoughts,

Fighting waves that nobody sees.

Every heartbeat feels like a surrender,

Begging for release.

Tell me where do I go from here?

When every road leads back to the start

I’m searching for something to hold onto…

Before I fall completely apart.

I’m drowning…

I’m drowning…

In my own thoughts.