I Miss Myself

**[Verse 1]**

I don't dream anymore,

I don't even try.

I have no story left to call mine.

I'm a stranger to my soul,

I'm nobody in your eyes.

A prisoner of these four walls inside.

I don't want

To face the day.

My life stood still the day

I lost myself along the way.

My bed has turned

Into a station,

Where I wait for the final destination.

**[Chorus]**

I am dead,

Cold and dead.

a lost soul abandoned one dark night,

Left alone to fear the silent dread.

I am dead,

Truly dead.

Sometimes I find myself—I don't know when.

Then I lose myself—I don't know where.

And after all these wasted years,

I still can't find my way back there.

**[Verse 2]**

Like a rope,

Like a buoy,

I cling to memories I've destroyed.

I'm so tired

Of pretending every day

That I'm somehow doing okay.

Every night I cut myself,

Every swallow tastes the same.

I don't look into the mirror anymore,

Since the day I walked away.

Now the face that's staring back at me

Has nothing left of yesterday.

**[Chorus]**

I am dead,

Cold and dead.

I gave this world so very little,

Left myself with emptiness instead.

I am dead,

Truly dead.

Burned every book I'd ever known,

Spat out every word I'd ever owned.

Yet there was a time

When I still knew how to live.

**[Verse 3]**

Emptiness has buried me.

Loneliness will never cease

As long as these lungs still breathe.

By an old radio,

Like a child who's lost his home,

I'll listen for a voice

That once belonged to me alone.

**[Chorus]**

I am dead,

Cold and dead.

Not because I ceased to be,

But because I faded into nothingness instead.

I am dead.

That's all.

I am dead.

I miss myself. I miss the ghost I used to be.

Like dust carried beneath the starlit sea.

I am dead.

That's all.

I am dead.

I miss myself.

My heart is dead,

Surrounded by walls.

It doesn't beat.

It only pumps blood.

I miss myself.