[INTRO — Whispered / Haunting Piano]
I've buried pieces of myself
In places nobody will find.
I've loved the ones who left me,
And mourned the ones who died.
They told me time would heal me...
(Silence)
THEN WHY THE FUCK AM I STILL BLEEDING?!
[FULL BAND EXPLODES]
[VERSE 1 — Aggressive Rap / Harsh Vocals]
I built a home inside a nightmare,
Made friends with every ghost.
Gave my heart to everybody,
Got abandoned when I needed them most.
I've been the villain in their stories,
The disappointment in their eyes.
Spent my whole damn life apologizing
Just for being alive!
I wear my failures like a crown,
Six feet deep but won't stay down.
You want the truth beneath my skin?
I'M EVERYTHING I'VE EVER FOUGHT AGAINST!
[PRE-CHORUS — Clean / Building]
And if tomorrow never comes,
Will they remember who I was?
Or just the things I couldn't be,
The broken man inside of me?
[CHORUS — MASSIVE CLEAN VOCALS]
I'M DEAD BUT I'M STILL DREAMING!
SCREAMING THROUGH THE SILENCE!
EVERY SCAR'S A STORY
OF A WAR I FOUGHT INSIDE!
I'VE BEEN BROKEN, I'VE BEEN BEATEN,
LOST THE LOVE I ONCE BELIEVED IN!
BUT IF MY HEART'S STILL BEATING—
THEN I'M NOT DONE WITH LIFE!
I'M DEAD BUT STILL DREAMING TONIGHT!
[VERSE 2 — Melodic / Screamed Alternation]
I watched the world keep spinning
When my whole world fell apart.
Watched the good ones leave too early,
Now their names live in my heart.
I tried to drown the empty feeling,
Tried to numb away the pain.
But every demon I kept feeding
Only learned to scream my name!
[GROWL]
I CAN'T SAVE EVERYBODY!
I CAN'T UNDO THE PAST!
BUT I'LL CARRY EVERY MEMORY
UNTIL I BREATHE MY LAST!
[BREAKDOWN — Half-Time / Brutal]
You wanted perfection?
I GAVE YOU MY BLOOD!
You wanted salvation?
I WAS NEVER ENOUGH!
I AM THE DAMAGE!
I AM THE PAIN!
BUT I AM MORE THAN THE FUCKING SHAME!
[Guitar stops — guttural whisper]
Dead...
But...
DREAMING!
BLEGH!
[EXTENDED DOUBLE-KICK BREAKDOWN]
[BRIDGE — Soft Clean Vocals / Emotional]
To the ones I couldn't save,
To the love I couldn't keep,
To the father that I miss,
To the ghosts inside my sleep...
If there's something left of me
Beyond the wreckage and the scars,
Let it be the part that loved
Even with a shattered heart.
[Orchestra rises]
Maybe I was never meant
To be the man they wanted me to be.
MAYBE ALL I EVER NEEDED...
WAS TO FINALLY BELIEVE IN ME!
[FINAL CHORUS — Clean + Screams Layered]
I'M DEAD BUT I'M STILL DREAMING!
THROUGH THE FIRE, THROUGH THE FEELING!
EVERY SCAR'S A REASON
THAT I'M STILL HERE TONIGHT!
I'VE BEEN HATED, I'VE BEEN HAUNTED,
LOST EVERYTHING I WANTED!
BUT YOU CAN'T BURY SOMEONE—
WHO STILL HAS THE WILL TO FIGHT!
I'M DEAD BUT STILL DREAMING!
AND I'M STILL ALIVE!
[OUTRO — Whisper / Fading Piano]
I am not my failures.
I am not who left.
I am not the darkness
That lives inside my chest.
I'm every soul I've loved.
Every promise that I keep.
And until my final heartbeat...
I'll still dream.