Loud one

Chorus

Oh, I saw it all, I saw it all so early

Every warning, every sign

I said it softly, I said it clearly

And I was never heard in time

Not too late, just never listened to

That's the grief I carry through

I saw it all, I saw it all

And I was never loud enough for you

Verse 2

My sister's pain had reasons

Every doctor wrote them down

Every room turned toward her

While I stood there with no sound

I'm not asking to trade places

I would never wish her days on me

But my small truth was always waiting

For a time that wouldn't be

Verse 3

Dad was gambling before I was born

And the house was always holding its breath

Lies behind the closing doors

A love that cost us all the rest

I was sixteen when I saw him slip

Another secret, another lie

Mama fought without a word

And I kept quiet by her side

Pre-Chorus

I knew the way this story goes

The way a family hides what it knows

Chorus

Oh, I saw it all, I saw it all so early

Every warning, every sign

I said it softly, I said it clearly

And I was never heard in time

Not too late, just never listened to

That's the grief I carry through

I saw it all, I saw it all

And I was never loud enough for you

Verse 4

Five years since the day you left

And the quiet came, but not as peace

It was heavy, it was hollow

A silence I could not release

I'm grieving who you were, and who you weren't

And all the things you never said

I carry love and I carry anger

And they sit together in my head

But it was never mine to carry

Never mine to hold alone

I only ever heard the weather

I was never the one who made the storm

Bridge

And then, in the stillness after the storm

I heard it, not the noise, but me

All those years I thought I was broken

When I was only never seen

Nothing's wrong, I was never too much

I was only tuned too fine

I was never the problem, I was the one

Who was listening all the time

Final Chorus

So I saw it all, I saw it all so early

And I'm done apologizing for my ears

I said it softly, I said it clearly

And now I say it so I hear

I'm still tired, and I'm still grieving

For the child who had no name for this

But I hear her now, I finally hear her

And I'll give her what she missed

Outro (soft, almost spoken)

It was only a spoon against a cup

And I was loud enough, at last, for me