HOW YOU BEEN? — KIRAMEKI

Your name lights up at a quarter to ten

"How you been?" and I type it again

"I'm good, been busy," delete the rest

Some things don't fit in a little blue text

冷めたコーヒー、眠れない夜

元気なふりが上手くなるほど

I wish you'd call so you'd hear my voice

Maybe you'd notice what words avoid

「大丈夫」って言ったけど

本当は少し違うの

Leave a little silence on the line

I might tell the truth this time

How you been? How you been?

Ask me twice, I'll let you in

I've been good at getting by

I've been bad at saying why

「元気？」もう一度聞いて

笑ってごまかす前に

You don't have to make it right

Just stay with me tonight

Paid my bills, got dressed, made plans

Then ate cold noodles over the pan

Made the group chat laugh till three

Funny how nobody checked on me

「いつもの私」でいたいから

ふざけた言葉で隠したまま

I know, I could've said something first

But making it real might make it hurt

I don't need a speech about staying strong

Been holding shit down for way too long

Kept every promise, ignored my sleep

Now even small things feel too steep

頼られるたび、うなずいて

自分の声だけ置き去りで

I hate that I wait till the tank runs dry

To admit I could use somebody tonight

「大丈夫」って言ったけど

本当は少し違うの

Leave a little silence on the line

I might tell the truth this time

How you been? How you been?

Ask me twice, I'll let you in

I've been good at getting by

I've been bad at saying why

「元気？」もう一度聞いて

笑ってごまかす前に

You don't have to make it right

Just stay with me tonight

You said, "We can talk, we can just sit here"

And I cried when you didn't disappear

答えがなくても、そばにいて

今夜は強がらなくていい？

For once, I don't have a joke

You stayed. So I spoke.

How you been? How you been?

Took a breath and let you in

I've been tired, I've been scared

Didn't know how much I held

元気じゃない日もあるよ

今ならちゃんと言えるよ

You don't have to make it right

Just stay with me tonight

"I'm not good, but I'm glad you called."

それだけで、少し楽になる