Love Myself Again

I gave you everything, everything I had,

Every ounce of love, every part of who I am.

I walked away from everyone, disappeared without a trace,

Burned down the life I knew just to give us both a place.

I gave up everything to start anew with you,

But somehow I was the only one who followed through.

You looked me in the eyes and made me believe,

That you were someone I could trust, someone who wouldn’t leave.

Now here I am, alone again,

With a broken heart and a thousand questions.

My head hangs low, my world caves in,

Picking up the pieces of what might have been.

Why do I keep searching for somebody to belong to,

When all along, you never wanted me to?

I gave you everything, but it wasn’t enough.

Why is letting go so damn hard when I’ve loved you this much?

You made me think that you were still my friend,

Someone I could trust, someone who wouldn’t pretend.

The kind of soul I could surrender to,

The kind of love I thought I’d finally found in you.

But I was holding on to something you let die,

While you walked away, I was still asking why.

How can someone hold you close and leave you feeling so alone?

How can forever disappear like it was never your own?

Am I broken? Am I too much?

Is my heart too deep, my love too much to trust?

Does it scare you when somebody loves

Beyond the limits of what you’ve ever known?

You made me hate myself when I watched you leave,

Made me question everything I used to believe.

But there’s something you forgot when you walked away:

You don’t get to decide my worth or what becomes of me.

You can keep the memories.

You can keep the lies.

You can have the promises

And every last goodbye.

But you can’t have what’s left of me.

You don’t get that victory.

‘Cause here I am, still standing tall,

I might be shattered, but I haven’t lost it all.

My heart was broken, but my spirit survived,

I’m finding the strength I thought had died.

I won’t chase what doesn’t want to stay,

I won’t lose myself just to make somebody stay.

I gave you everything, but now I understand,

The love I kept on giving you belongs in my own hands.

I’m learning to love myself

With every piece you left behind.

Finding all the parts of me

I buried just to make you mine.

You may have been the reason

I forgot what I was worth…

But I’ll be damned if you’re the reason

I never find it again.

I gave you everything…

Now I’m giving it back to me.