All That Time

Verse 1

There’s a box beneath the bed

Full of things I meant to do.

An application, concert tickets,

Letters I stopped answering for you.

I kept saying, “When we’re better,”

Like better was a place we’d reach.

You kept finding something wrong,

And I kept thinking it was me.

Pre-Chorus

I learned your every warning sign,

Forgot what made me feel alive.

Chorus

All that time—God, all that time,

Trying to be somebody you could love.

I gave you every version of myself

And watched you say it wasn’t enough.

When your mask finally hit the floor,

You looked relieved that I could see.

I was building us a future—

You were making someone else of me.

Verse 2

I remember how you held me

The first night I let you stay.

Now that memory feels haunted

By the things you’d later say.

You took the fears I whispered

When I trusted you the most,

And threw them back across the kitchen

Till I couldn’t call it home.

Pre-Chorus

You knew exactly where it hurt.

I heard you choosing every word.

Chorus

All that time—God, all that time,

Trying to be somebody you could love.

I gave you every version of myself

And watched you say it wasn’t enough.

When your mask finally hit the floor,

You looked relieved that I could see.

I was building us a future—

You were making someone else of me.

Bridge — fragile, then soaring

I want the summer I spent crying

While my friends were at the coast.

I want the morning of my birthday

Before you made me feel alone.

I want to reach into those photographs

And tell that girl to leave.

But she was doing everything she could

With what you let her believe.

Final Chorus

All that time—God, all that time,

And there’s no way to make you give it back.

I’m allowed to hate what happened,

Let the grief come pouring through the cracks.

You revealed yourself so clearly

That I finally stopped asking why.

I put the box beside my suitcase—

There’s still a life I haven’t tried.

Outro — softly

Today I called an old friend.

She said, “I’ve missed your voice.”

I cried before I answered,

“I think I have too.”