I Was There, You Weren't

I memorized the sound of silence

Waiting for your name to light my phone

I made excuses for your absence

While learning how to sleep alone

You said you loved me in the morning

Then disappeared into the night

And I kept holding on to something

That never really held me tight

I wasn't asking for forever

Just a moment of your time

But somehow loving you meant losing

Every little piece of mine

I was there when you needed someone

I stayed when the world turned cold

I gave you all the love I carried

While you left my hands with nothing to hold

I was there through every silence

Every promise, every lie

You never had to watch me leaving

'Cause I was always by your side

But when I needed you the most

I was there...

You weren't.

I learned to read between your answers

To find the words you never said

I built a home inside your promises

And lived with strangers in my head

I wasn't perfect, never claimed it

But every feeling I gave was real

And you kept calling it complicated

When all I wanted was to feel

Like I mattered for a moment

Like my heart was worth your time

But I was fighting for a future

You had already left behind

I was there when you needed someone

I stayed when the world turned cold

I gave you all the love I carried

While you left my hands with nothing to hold

I was there through every silence

Every promise, every lie

You never had to watch me leaving

'Cause I was always by your side

But when I needed you the most

I was there...

You weren't.

And now you're asking why I'm distant

Why my voice no longer shakes

Funny how you finally notice

Only when my silence takes your place

I don't hate you for the hurting

I don't wish you any pain

But I can't keep breaking my own heart

Just to make you stay

I was there when you needed someone

I stayed until I disappeared

I loved you louder than your silence

And cried the tears you never heard

Now I'm leaving without anger

No more questions, no more fights

You can keep the love I gave you

But I'm taking back my life

And if you ever wonder why

I stopped reaching out this time

Remember all those lonely nights...

I was there...

You weren't.

I never needed all your hours

Just a little of your time

I never asked you to be perfect

I just wanted you to be mine

And maybe that's the saddest part...

I was yours.

You were never mine.