You Don’t Get A Say

Verse 1]

You could make a slammed door sound like my fault,

Tell me I was crazy till I stopped talking.

Had a different truth for every friend,

And a reason it was me again.

I learned to cry without making a sound,

Keep my eyes on you when your friends came ’round.

Now I’m singing in the kitchen at two—

Don’t have to stop when somebody walks through.

You said nobody else would want me.

Funny—I want myself.

You said I couldn’t live without you.

I’m doing pretty fucking well.

Fuck it all, I do what I want now!

Hands in the air when the beat comes down.

Say what I mean, kiss who I choose,

Spend my Saturday wearing those boots.

Cut my hair, change my plans,

Don’t owe anybody a song and dance.

My yes, my no, my night, my day—

This is my life; you don’t get a say!

Took a trip you would’ve talked me out of,

Got a little lost, found a place I loved.

Sent my best friend a picture of the view—

First good thing I didn’t wish I could tell you.

You can work that room, turn on that charm,

Tell them you never meant any harm.

I won’t spend my freedom chasing your lies;

There’s a whole damn sunset happening outside.

Keep the speech where you’re the victim,

Keep the tears that disappear.

I don’t need you to admit it

To know why I’m not there.

Fuck it all, I do what I want now!

Hands in the air when the beat comes down.

Say what I mean, kiss who I choose,

Spend my Saturday wearing those boots.

Cut my hair, change my plans,

Don’t owe anybody a song and dance.

My yes, my no, my night, my day—

This is my life; you don’t get a say!

I still catch myself asking,

“Is this gonna start a fight?”

Then I hear my friend say, “Honey,

You can stay another night.”

So I put my jacket back down,

Order something else to eat.

Such a little thing, deciding—

Such a big thing being free.

Pathological liar—

I’m done hearing you out!

Narcissistic bullshit—

I can live without!

You don’t get my weekends!

You don’t get my sleep!

You don’t get another year

Of the only life I get to keep!

Fuck it all, I do what I want now!

Hear my friends yelling every word out.

Take up the floor, ask someone to dance,

Say “not tonight” if I don’t feel that.

Make my choices, change my plans,

Love myself without a list of demands.

My yes, my no, my night, my day—

This is my life; you don’t get a say!

No checking the clock.

No dreading the drive.

Just one more song—

God, I love being alive.

Fuck it all.

I do what I want now.